“My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.” Job 42:5
Job was a devoted, honest man who God blessed abundantly. But suddenly all his blessings were taken away: his family, his fortune and his health. Before this, Job’s faith in God had never been tested. Job only knew and trusted God based on what others told him, not on his own personal knowledge of God. Because Job did not know God personally, when trials came, Job blamed and doubted God. Only after God revealed himself to Job and Job experienced God personally, did Job comprehend who God was and humble himself before the Lord. Job said to God, “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.” Job 42:2 Once Job had humbled Himself, God eventually restored all that Job had lost and made him twice as prosperous.
For many years, I had heard of God, but I did not see God: I did not have personal knowledge of who He was. Growing up in church, I heard people say all these wonderful things about a God that I did not know or understand. I liked what I heard, if it was true, but I wasn’t convinced that it was. I had no personal experience with God and He seemed so remote. I knew of God, but I did not see God. So when an unthinkable tragedy struck my family, I cried out to the God I did not know for an explanation: “ God, if You are who I have heard them say that you are, why did you let this happen?” When I didn’t hear an answer, I became angry and began to doubt all that I had heard of God. When tragedy struck my family again and my life was forever changed, I was convinced that God was not fair or just, because if He was, He would have never let the unthinkable happen again. I did not see God. I had no personal knowledge of God to sustain me through these rough times. I stopped believing.
Because of God’s relentless love, my story does not end there. God pursued me by sending people into my life time and time again to show me His love and eventually my heart began to soften. I began to believe that maybe, just maybe God was those things that others claimed Him to be. Eventually I began to see God for myself and did not need to rely on what others said about Him. I began to know Him personally through His two greatest gifts to us: His Word and His Son, Jesus Christ our LORD and Savior.
Now I understand that God was not to blame for the tragedies in my life and that He was there all along. Now I understand that God speaks to me through His Word and that if I know His Word, I will know Him. My ears had heard of God but now my eyes have seen Him!
“In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God.” John 1:1